Sits by a candle's flickering light in the kitchen of a squalid
apartment in Paris, hunched over the table, focused
on a
drawing begun in class that day. Wax drips onto coarse paper, shadows splay
across cold walls describing primal shapes in sulci and gyri of cracked plaster.
Shivering from when a crowbar pierced
the frontal lobes of a railway worker named Phineas Gage, his close friends
and relations remarked, 'Gage wasn't Gage anymore.' In this famous example
of frontal lobe damage, Gage was transformed from a stable, polite, hardworking
young man into a lying, cheating vagabond
who could not hold down the damp air...he
becomes
aware of water dripping through darkness, father snoring in bedroom, sister standing behind, staring down at wrinkled
white space
transfigured by bold charcoal lines. A few years older than Auguste,
wise before her time, it's Marie's faith that
sees
him through the night, and poverty of his grandiose dream.
Wearing a hooded raincoat and
hauling a backpack, a man passes me, looking like he knows where
he is going. I don't. The world of myth remains naked and chaotic;
night's cowl slowly darkens my heart.